Thursday, January 31, 2008
Who Am I?
This question I started asking myself during my final semester in college.
This question is not to get into any philosophical theory or something.
This question is only for me to answer to myself.
This question is to judge myself as a person or as an individual.
This question started troubling me after I got to know what in general people feel about me.
If someone asks me how I’m in academics, I can say that I’m an average person or just above average. But I got a rude shock when I found that lots of people think me to be a brilliant person, who is totally academic-oriented. Even many see me as a role-model (though there is nothing wrong in it but I don’t think I’ve accomplished anything that I could become a role-model for someone).
This made me wonder on how they got such a notion!
Is it, just because, I was, among very few students, who got placed in a software concern during the job placement. Or is because they always see me reading (actually novel). Or is it because, I like to talk about anything under the sun, from sports to movies to marriages to anything.
I’m a very extrovert person, ready to talk to anyone & everyone. Though I might not have knowledge about many things but I try to include myself in any discussion that’s going on in a group, but actually many have got this wrong idea that I’m a very quiet person!
Not just academics but in many other areas too, how I perceive myself, has been entirely different from how others see me.
This makes me wonder ‘Who am I?’
I’ve always believed that what a person thinks only is shown outwardly, unless that person is a very good actor. But now my own case has proved my belief to be wrong.
But then I wonder how it is possible.
Here, I just gave an example of my academics, to try to express myself better. There are many instances which have made me wonder about myself or what others think I’m.
If I’m not what I’m, then how can other see me in that way?? And if I’m what I’m, then how can other not see me in that way??
Who Am I?
Ps – I hope I’m able to find about this during my lifetime. I would appreciate if you can tell me what you personally think of me. It will be of real help.